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PTSD Hell

My PTSD has become almost overwhelming.  I wake up each morning and I’m depressed that I didn’t die in my sleep.  I lay there and wish I didn’t have to face another day.  Images of a rope with a noose … Continue reading

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PTSD Destroys Souls

There is a special kind of loneliness and separation from the world that PTSD forces upon you.  I may be surrounded by people but I connect on a human level with none of them.  I listen to their vapid, meaningless … Continue reading

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Medics, Morphine and Gang Rape

We were assigned to a fire base near the DMZ for a few days of R&R and to get ready to go back into the field.  For me, part of “relaxing” was to grab a ride into Dong Ha/Quang Tri … Continue reading

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Little Dead Vietnamese Girls

It started on a fairly sunny, warm day.  I had come in-country just a couple weeks earlier.  26 weeks of boot camp and combat infantry training had already shown me that being a Marine was a bad decision but there … Continue reading

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PTSD, Pretty Words and Reality.

I’m on Facebook. I see a lot of posts that advise us to live in the moment, to let the past go, to forgive ourselves and move on. Those are wonderful sentiments for some, I suppose. I guess there are … Continue reading

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Buddha – The Long Way Around

I was asked recently why I suddenly decided to study Buddha and the precepts of Buddha after all these years of proclaiming myself an atheist or, at best, an agnostic. The short answer is that I’m still leaning towards Atheism … Continue reading

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Another PTSD Stupidty Rant

Every now and then I wonder if my distaste for talking to people is purely a result of my PTSD or if it’s a mixture of PTSD and a complete hatred of stupid people.  While for the last couple of … Continue reading

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PTSD, Reality, Stupidity

Conversations I’ve had the last few days stun me.  Granted, PTSD and reality are difficult enough as it is to reconcile but then throw in a level of stupidity that is boundless and I honestly do not know what I’m … Continue reading

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PTSD Rant

Something important dawned on me last night.  I don’t deserve PTSD from Vietnam.  The guy or woman down the street doesn’t deserve PTSD from wars.  The kids that are stupidly signing up right this very instant to go fight the … Continue reading

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PTSD Bedtime Thoughts

Laying in bed last night wondering why my PTSD has come back with such a vengeance.  The dreams I can almost handle.  I’m to the point in most of them that I am aware that I am reliving a nightmare … Continue reading

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