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PTSD Hell

My PTSD has become almost overwhelming.  I wake up each morning and I’m depressed that I didn’t die in my sleep.  I lay there and wish I didn’t have to face another day.  Images of a rope with a noose … Continue reading

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PTSD Destroys Souls

There is a special kind of loneliness and separation from the world that PTSD forces upon you.  I may be surrounded by people but I connect on a human level with none of them.  I listen to their vapid, meaningless … Continue reading

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Buddha – The Long Way Around

I was asked recently why I suddenly decided to study Buddha and the precepts of Buddha after all these years of proclaiming myself an atheist or, at best, an agnostic. The short answer is that I’m still leaning towards Atheism … Continue reading

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VA Medical “Care”

Okay, this sucks. The vast VA medical care system, one of the largest in America, gives up very easily and can tell a vet, “We don’t know what is causing the problem but we won’t do any more tests to … Continue reading

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Another PTSD Stupidty Rant

Every now and then I wonder if my distaste for talking to people is purely a result of my PTSD or if it’s a mixture of PTSD and a complete hatred of stupid people.  While for the last couple of … Continue reading

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PTSD, Reality, Stupidity

Conversations I’ve had the last few days stun me.  Granted, PTSD and reality are difficult enough as it is to reconcile but then throw in a level of stupidity that is boundless and I honestly do not know what I’m … Continue reading

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PTSD Rant

Something important dawned on me last night.  I don’t deserve PTSD from Vietnam.  The guy or woman down the street doesn’t deserve PTSD from wars.  The kids that are stupidly signing up right this very instant to go fight the … Continue reading

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PTSD Resources For Information and Help

I’ve got my son registered in the two classes he really wanted, fees are paid and now it’s just lots of city bus rides for the boy back and forth.  I doubt if my PTSD would ever allow me to … Continue reading

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PTSD & Enrolling My Learning Disabled Son

Here’s a nightmare scenario for anyone that truly understands how much a person with severe PTSD despises being out among people.  Imagine the combination of living in the darkness of PTSD and having to go to the wrong side of … Continue reading

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PTSD – Writer’s Anger

I’ve had a few folks, recently, ask why so much of my writing sounds so angry.  They ask why I call politicians, and particularly Republicans but right wing Democrats as well, animals and filth and the other endearing terms I … Continue reading

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