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PTSD Hell

My PTSD has become almost overwhelming.  I wake up each morning and I’m depressed that I didn’t die in my sleep.  I lay there and wish I didn’t have to face another day.  Images of a rope with a noose … Continue reading

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Medics, Morphine and Gang Rape

We were assigned to a fire base near the DMZ for a few days of R&R and to get ready to go back into the field.  For me, part of “relaxing” was to grab a ride into Dong Ha/Quang Tri … Continue reading

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Little Dead Vietnamese Girls

It started on a fairly sunny, warm day.  I had come in-country just a couple weeks earlier.  26 weeks of boot camp and combat infantry training had already shown me that being a Marine was a bad decision but there … Continue reading

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PTSD, Pretty Words and Reality.

I’m on Facebook. I see a lot of posts that advise us to live in the moment, to let the past go, to forgive ourselves and move on. Those are wonderful sentiments for some, I suppose. I guess there are … Continue reading

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Buddha – The Long Way Around

I was asked recently why I suddenly decided to study Buddha and the precepts of Buddha after all these years of proclaiming myself an atheist or, at best, an agnostic. The short answer is that I’m still leaning towards Atheism … Continue reading

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PTSD – Writer’s Anger

I’ve had a few folks, recently, ask why so much of my writing sounds so angry.  They ask why I call politicians, and particularly Republicans but right wing Democrats as well, animals and filth and the other endearing terms I … Continue reading

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PTSD Just Isn’t That Important

I won’t name anyone nor quote anyone exactly because I doubt that I would ever be given permission to do so. I know that when I write a PTSD article, the little notifications I send out goes to maybe 4000 … Continue reading

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PTSD and So Many Treatments

Saw my VA shrink again today and tried to keep working out my PTSD. Hard to get too serious about what I’m thinking because he has this habit of constantly yawning and stretching while I’m talking. Makes me feel like … Continue reading

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PTSD and Survivor’s Guilt

I learned a new PTSD phrase and a new idea today. It’s called “Survivor’s Guilt” and it apparently plays a huge role in PTSD for many of us. I won’t bother you with the textbook definition of that phrase I’ll … Continue reading

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PTSD – A Story Of Late Night Remorse

I wanted to sleep tonight. I felt that I’d written enough for one day. I came to bed, read a little of my trivia book, considered whether to masturbate or not and didn’t, made sure the air conditioning was on … Continue reading

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